:/

I don't know why it keeps bothering me. I miss you, and I can't get over that we don't talk as much and barely see each other at all. You were my other half, my soul sister, and I wish we never lost contact when I moved. We could never have too many hours in a day to talk about anything and everything. We would spend all day together and when I'd get home, I'd call you immediately or you'd call me and we'd still continue talking as if we never even hung out at all. I swear I could write a book on our friendship, and everything we've experienced together. I miss you I miss you I miss you. I don't know if I'm just being ridiculous. I may be But I feel most people go their whole lives searching for the friendship we shared.

I try so hard to think about when our friendship started to break apart. I really cannot recall how or why we stopped talking and hanging out. Its all a blur to me. Maybe it was during a time when I was going through some difficult things, that might have something to do with why i can't remember. I don't know, maybe that's what bothers me the most. The fact that I don't know why we stopped talking.

All the nights we spent walking down lakeview ave, eating chinese food and you'd eat the carrots, I'd eat the broccoli and we'd split the chicken. It was always perfect. :) Drug Fair, Pizza place, hienekins, the drunk bitch who bit you at your party, all the sleep overs, the 1 am wakeup call singing outside your window holding a rose, the time you actually hurt yourself in your bathroom with scissors bc you were so upset, and i remember going to your house and you told me what you did. All the guys that would holla at you ALL the time. your mom yelling at you from across the street holding her flip flops embarrassing you in front of your crush. ralphie tony. you always had smiley faces everywhere, on everything, and you never failed to make me smile everyday. dancing, doing laundry, getting in trouble, youre moms creeper status. your dog julie. <3 r.i.p, your goth neighbor and her little sister angelica and you always heard her be such a bitch and gave me dirty ass looks cuz i was cooler than her. :) plantain chips with lime and salt, eating EVERYTHING with lime and salt...and the list goes on and on and on and I won't ever forget anything we've done.

I don't know if things could ever go back to the way they were, i guess not because that was then and this is now. We've grown up and we have our own things going on. Bleh. Just needed to get this off my chest. It comes up from time to time and i just think it over in my head and i just simply miss it. i MISS the closeness we had.

but whatever happens happens for a reason I guess.